+31 0615102952 kajnsmit@icloud.com

Mentally accepting that I had a brain hemorrage  and getting to where I am now was really challenging. As you can see in the video. I was trapped in my body. I didn’t want to continue. I wanted to end my life, not to die. But to escape this situation. Because I  didn’t know the difference between fiction and reality.

Hi I’m Kaj Smit a 19 year old guy from The Netherlands. In my first 18 years of life, I visited many countries. Acquired a lot of new skills and fond memories. That I still hold dear today.

I worked out a lot. Between the 4-6 times a week. Didn’t drink, didn’t smoke and didn’t do drugs.

I was/am a spontaneous person who was always in for something new and exiting. Well……

what was about to come was a little too exiting and new.

Rehabilitation is sport of the highest level, but it’s mostly a mental game.

Mentally you’ve got to endure the hardest pain of wanting/wishing you’d become the person you were, but you’re never going to be the same again. The hardest part of the journey is that you need to let the old you go. You need to love your new self and find joy in being your new self. This was the hardest part.

Because of having been a vegetable and being locked inside my body with only my thoughts, I learned how to overcome the fear of being alone.

This and how to stay positive in even the most dire situations are what made me who I am today.